Like with many adoptive families, birthdays can be bitter sweet. My precious boy lost everything he had ever known on the day he was born. I often wonder which loss was more confusing, that of his twin sister- his other half, his womb mate and constant companion- or of the mother that had carried him for those many months. In the blink of an eye they were both just gone, lost to him forever. My heart still aches to think of the nearly 12 long months he waited for us. So I can't help but have mixed feelings when thinking about his birthday and I'm just not sure it comes with the same emotions others have when thinking about their child's arrival into the world. We will always celebrate his arrival...but the more time that passes, the odder if feels to be celebrating the day he lost so much.
But in the beginning I had the blessing of naivety and being there for his first birthday, from the very beginning of our adoption process, was immensely important to me. I would be there to celebrate him, to show him he was wanted, loved, a cherished son. He would not spend a single birthday without a family, without a momma to love him. And I made sure of that.
An orphanage birthday party is not what many dream of when thinking of a first birthday celebration, but I was so excited for it you would have thought it was going to be the grandest celebration Kiev had ever seen. My husband had flown back to the United States so I was feeling my way around on my own. It was early in my almost two month stay and I wasn't nearly as familiar with city as I was by the end, so my shopping was mostly limited to the little shops at the orphanage metro stop. But I found everything I needed. A 1st birthday candle, birthday hats, balloons and little frosted pastries was all we needed for our little celebration.
It was in the days before his birthday that I met the Peterson's for the first time as they returned for their court date. I've said it so many times but the company and friendship that they offered me during our time there together is something I'll always treasure. Having them there to celebrate Hamilton with me was so special! They made it a party for sure!! And it's thanks to them that I'm actually IN some pictures with Hamilton! I couldn't share these pictures at the time because we hadn't had court yet and I'm not sure I ever shared them later. Hope you enjoy the little trip down memory lane as much as I do!