About a year and half ago I was in a car accident that left me paralyzed below the chest. While I regained some core control and some tactile sensation, doctors, medicine or my progress left little hope that much else would come back. I would never walk again. Last June something happened that no one could explain and I went numb on the left side of my abdomen and lost all the sensation that had returned in my legs. I stopped thinking about what would come back after that and have spent the last year and half laser focused, no pun intended, on mastering life in a wheelchair and getting back to a place where I could mother, work and function independently.
I’ve followed QRI from a distance for several years, wondering if it could help my kids, especially my son with a dual diagnosis. Then in May someone from the QRI Brain Boost Center reached out to me, told me about the June Intensive and that there might be a chance the lasers could help me. I decided to go, to try it, but mostly in hopes of learning more about how it may help my boys. I had no expectations but a very open mind and believed it was certainly possible that I might see some improvements. Acupuncture had yielded some improvements early on and I’ve had enough experience with “alternative medicine” to know anything was possible.
To get to the nitty gritty of if it helped or not with my paralysis...when I arrived I had basically no tactile sensation from the chest down.
Day one: by the end of the day I was able to feel “touch” down the outside of both my legs. I could feel a little bit on my right foot.
Day two: Feeling began to come back in my lower back and across my abdomen. Some of it was greatly distorted, meaning I could feel contact but couldn’t discern it it was a hand or a brush, sharp, light or hard. More feeling was coming back in different places on my right leg. My primitive reflexes were responding more.
Day three: what I was feeling became more accurate. I could tell what I was being touched with and gradually could feel in more places.
Day four: By the end of the intensive I had regained probably 80% of the tactile sensation I lost as a result of my injury. Much of it was strong and accurate, some of it was still distorted but present none the less. I hadn’t realized how profound touch would feel after only being able to experience tactile sensation on 25% of my body for the last year and half.
It also became very apparent something was going on the left side of my abdomen along the bottom of my rib cage. The area was massively swollen (you can see it in pics) and the more I was able to feel the more I realized this is where the numbness started and came from last June when, over the course of 3 days , I lost everything I had regained. It’s likely scar tissue from impact from my accident and I’m working on getting it treated. It feels like it’s blocking future recovery and is going to play a key role in healing. The downside to “feeling” is it’s very uncomfortable. My acupuncturist I saw last week attempted to treat it and the placement of 2 needles caused me to literally come off of the table in pain. If you’ve had acupuncture before you know the needles don’t hurt. So there is definitely something going on.
This has been the hardest part. What to do now?! Is there really hope? How much recovery should I hope for? How do I afford this? “Hope” is hard. Hope is harder than I ever imagined it could be. Hacking life in a wheelchair came much easier to me than navigating all the emotions that are coming with this new hope, this new chance at recovery. And what could this mean for my boys?! If these lasers can heal my paralyzed body, a damaged spinal cord, what might they be able to heal for my children.
I’m trying to figure out the financial piece so I can get back for another Intensive, get my boys to an Intensive but first and foremost, to purchase the laser and additional equipment so I continue treatment at home. It’s an expensive endeavor but I have faith we will figure it out. Several people have already suggested a Go Fund me but I just don’t know if I can do that again. I love you all for it and know so many would give what they could but there has already been a life time of generality bestowed upon us. I will happily take though all of the prayers and love and goodwill you can send our way😘